Tuesday, May 9, 2006
Lots to Learn
Wow, I have a lot to learn regarding blogging. Html? Code? Publishing pics to the internet? Sheesh! Oh well I will have a lot of time to figure it out in the coming days.
I spent a lot of time trying to think of something witty and cool to say my first time posting but then I thought it'll come across looking like I was trying to be witty and cool. I just decided to be cool by acting like it was no big deal to make my first post. I have often thought about doing a blog but never really took the plunge. What prompted me to finally dive in was the fact that I am going in for surgery on May 22 and I have really been struggling with it. My wife lying beside me as I write this is laughing at me because I tend to tell everybody what is going on in my life, especially the surgery. I suppose it's my way of dealing with the anxiety over the whole thing.
I also hoped to be able to share about my life in recovery. I have been clean since February 15th, 2003. I want to share how God has changed my life. Without him I would be very alone, dead, or in jail. I want to make it very clear from the beginning that I am not out to fix anybody. I am only going to share my experience strength and hope. I am going to be honest daily about my life good and bad. I am a sinner who tries be Christ-like in my daily living. I usually fail miserably but I know that God will forgive my transgessions through his Son, Jesus Christ.
I also want to share about my recovery from the triple fusion surgery I am having on May 22. My L3, 4 and 5 were damaged beyond repair in a car accident October 10 2004. As a Believer who struggles with addiction it has been very difficult managing my pain. I have been on narcotic pain medication since last November. I am in constant pain even with the medication. I don't take more than what the bottle says but that is small comfort. I am lucky that God has gifted me with excellent accountability partners and friends through our church's Celebrate Recovery Program. I pray each day that when it is time to come off the medication that God will ease the physical withdrawal. I am not worried about the mental because of my program. So I invite you to join me and my ramblings. I plan to write about whats going on in my day, my walk with Christ, what I find interesting, and maybe even some politics.
Thanks for reading
I hope you find it interesting.