Tuesday, May 9, 2006

Lots to Learn


Wow, I have a lot to learn regarding blogging. Html? Code? Publishing pics to the internet? Sheesh! Oh well I will have a lot of time to figure it out in the coming days.

I spent a lot of time trying to think of something witty and cool to say my first time posting but then I thought it'll come across looking like I was trying to be witty and cool. I just decided to be cool by acting like it was no big deal to make my first post. I have often thought about doing a blog but never really took the plunge. What prompted me to finally dive in was the fact that I am going in for surgery on May 22 and I have really been struggling with it. My wife lying beside me as I write this is laughing at me because I tend to tell everybody what is going on in my life, especially the surgery. I suppose it's my way of dealing with the anxiety over the whole thing.
I also hoped to be able to share about my life in recovery. I have been clean since February 15th, 2003. I want to share how God has changed my life. Without him I would be very alone, dead, or in jail. I want to make it very clear from the beginning that I am not out to fix anybody. I am only going to share my experience strength and hope. I am going to be honest daily about my life good and bad. I am a sinner who tries be Christ-like in my daily living. I usually fail miserably but I know that God will forgive my transgessions through his Son, Jesus Christ.
I also want to share about my recovery from the triple fusion surgery I am having on May 22. My L3, 4 and 5 were damaged beyond repair in a car accident October 10 2004. As a Believer who struggles with addiction it has been very difficult managing my pain. I have been on narcotic pain medication since last November. I am in constant pain even with the medication. I don't take more than what the bottle says but that is small comfort. I am lucky that God has gifted me with excellent accountability partners and friends through our church's Celebrate Recovery Program. I pray each day that when it is time to come off the medication that God will ease the physical withdrawal. I am not worried about the mental because of my program. So I invite you to join me and my ramblings. I plan to write about whats going on in my day, my walk with Christ, what I find interesting, and maybe even some politics.

Thanks for reading
I hope you find it interesting.

4 comments:

Craig said...

The journey and the transformation that is your life is a real testament to what God can do when you let him. You are a real inspiration to me. Know that many people are praying for you.
Love ya bro'!

Craig said...

Your journey over the past 3 to 4 years is a real testament as to what God can do when you let him. You are a real inspiration to me. Know that I am praying for you, and so are many others.
Love ya bro'!!!

-Craig

Redeemed said...

A friend of mine found your blog and told me about it. I think you are telling my story! I have been clean since February 17, 2004. Last September I started having severe headaches and discovered that my spinal cord was being crushed by my C4, C6, & C7 vertabrae in my neck. I was immediately hospitalized, but my surgeon decided to go out of the country. I live in a small town and he is the only neurosurgeon around. I was in a lot of pain and was placed on a morphine pump. I was very uneasy about it, but I thought it would only be for a few days. It ended up being five weeks I, actually, by the grace of God, did okay with the withdrawal. My friends and my sponsor all have helped to hold me accountable. It has taken me two years of inner struggle to truly feel the closeness to God that I have now. I am interested in the Celebrate Recovery program that you mentioned. My church is hopefully going to start it in the fall. I would love to know more about it! I also have a blog of my own, check it out and I look forward to your post! www.adoptionbygod.blogspot.com

deborah said...

I see you commented on one of my blogs. I have blogged off and on for the last year or so. Just getting back into it. I hope it owuld be okay if I include a lnk to your blog on mine. God bless and prayers for your surgery.

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