Thats the way I felt, before I came back to Jesus. Defragmented, lost. A big chunk of my life gone. I didn't know what hope was to know I didn't have any. Lost in a world of guilt and shame over my drug use. Not knowing or thinking how to stop the cycle. Luckily, like my laptop I didn't just stop. I didn't go to jail, hospital, or morg. A little voice told me it was time. God put the pieces back together. Not all at once but when He knew I was ready.